it’s raining inside (painting)

it's raining inside - painting

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do not stare at this (painting)

dare to stare

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a #poem is born

I see the apple lying on the groundrotten apple - i dare u to stare
and watch it rotting more, day after day,
while I do nothing more than sit and stare,
amassing my own loneliness inside;

until, at last, it hits me in the head —
not the apple, but the thought that I
am like the apple rotting on the ground.

And just like that, the poem bursts to life
out from the worm mush and the fruity wretch;
it rises as a sapling in my mind;
it grows, matures, bears leaves and fruit;

and I consume its spawn until it’s bare,
then chop it down to burn its corpse for warmth.

Forgive me, Willard; I wish I had learned more.

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the courtship of monsters and butterflies (#photo)

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a photo that I took of some buildings (in Chicago, I believe); it is the same core image used in “Catch and Release.”

within the Babel Project, i call this series of mirrored imaged the “douBabel” series.

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A Sonnet on the Elementary School Crossing-Guard (#poem)

the crossing guardThere is some fortune, I suppose, that we
have someone in the role of crossing-guard
who does her part-time job as earnestly
as someone whose own child once was marred
right there within the crossing, where the streets
so suddenly switch the way that cars can drive,
right there where her stern face now greets
those children who, for now, remain alive;

but her seriousness makes all the rest
of us seem so half-hearted in our jobs
that none of us except the very best
could stand beside her and not look like slobs.

Indeed, what sort of school would this one be
if parents watched their kids as close as she?

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Down the Rabbit Hole (The Matrix) (#photo)

Down the Rabbit Hole (The Matrix)

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everything obliterated (#poem)

“What profit hath a man from all his labor which he doeth under the sun?
One generation passeth away, and another generation cometh; but the earth abideth for ever.
The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down, and hasteneth to his place where he arose.”
- Ecclesiastes 1:3-5, 21st Century King James Version

the witching hour beckons, the ghost hour recoils;
the sun will never rise again for you, my love.

the heat of the day recedes into the evening;
the birds lock up their treasured songs in trees
(then, soon as sleep, they’re shunned into the breeze).

squirrels gather them in greedy maws, then pause.

this is the final winter.

the morning’s sun aroseth like a guinea tossed,2
sparkling in the mor– no, nothing sparkles in itself but pride.

the morning’s sun aroseth underneath the pillar of your tongue,3
and all your words were scor – no, no that’s not mine either.

the morning’s sun aroseth like –

the morning’s sun aroseth like a chorus to baptize the day in song,
but the noon crescendo found a corpse beside the altar;

at dusk, the coda was a jury’s call.

who now sits in judgment over the gasping sepulcher of this over-proud earth?
will there not a one remain to bury its bones? will it hang, glazed in death,
like a penny in a foreign pool?

(alas, my sweet, your commerce was a fallacy.)

the night comes, and the dead slip out to sea in boats bound each to each by twine;
a solitary moon looms overhead like a dry-tit nanny, her milky eyes all gape and hunger;
she draws them in, one by one, under the ocean skirt of her longing,
over the watery edge of their world;

underneath the waves, a fairy tailed captain sings to a drowned mast his songs recalling perfumed lace;
no fifteen men, no dead man’s chest, no bottles of rum; only endless drink, and the devil to choke it down.

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February 17, 2004

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prayer (poem)

I am otherwise a desert of rock and sand, but, in your love, I am become a garden;
The Blessed Mother and ChildI am a field to feed the world when I am in your arms,
I am life filling Life when your love is around me.

Your love is rain that fills my heart’s valley;
It grows into a lake, it turns into a sea –
Your love runs over and waters the world around me.

I was empty, and you gave me fullness;
I was without, and you brought me within;
I was hungry, and you filled me with thirst;
I was thirsty, and was quenched by my hunger for you.

I shall never be alone, for I am of you and you are in all;
I shall sleep in the peace of living and live in the dream of loving;
I am yours now, as you first made me, and shall be yours until you make me new again.

—–
2003

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How She Faced Her Cancer (poem)

self as alien invaderLet them see me.
Let them see my hairless head, my translucent skin.
Let them see the lantern of my bones.

Let them turn their eyes towards mine
and cower under the gaze of the mirror
I am become.

Let them then run from the room
to finish their Will;
to call their father;
to forgive their lover.

Let them behold me –
not me, not my cancer,
but Death.

For I am an angel of the next world;
for I am a bridge across that abyss –

so let them see me
                               and I will not die.


5-25-2011

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say ahhhhh #photo)

At Murray Street Coffee Shop.

say ahhhh (at Murray Street Coffee)

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Carnac 2.0 (or, In the Mind of a Fool is the Mind of a Fool) (#photo)

Carnac 2.0

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My Inner Beast (after reading Dylan Thomas)

My inner beast emerges from his daily
cave of sorrow and self-affection
to roam noisome in the shadowed streets
and swaying boughs of this, my lonely evening.

Slack-jawed dumborn, sick in the sheets at an early age,
he sleeps not, twiddles awful bits and sparks into the darkness;

He is sunk above the ankle in the mire of our chemicals;
he oozes from half-covered lesions all the spite and lust of
tombstones in the moonlight:

love, the brack above his chin where our only hope resides,
spits at dust-filled mirrors, and then glistens in the neon.

some vaquero stares from underneath the shadow of a stranger’s hat;
his eyes are coins that he carries in his jeans.
there is no way to make change as he dips his oar inside you,
paddles deeply through forgetting towards
the other side of waking.

5.14.2004

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Teaching my Daughter to Simile (poem)

My wife tells me that we need to talk about the
freakin’ problem.

“Maddie came home from school, and
said she was ‘freakin’ thirsty’.”

Teaching my daughter to SimileMy daughter laughs.
That’s not good, I say;
you shouldn’t talk like that at your new school.
They’re going to think you’re unintelligent.
Do you know what unintelligent means?

Blank stare. Long eyelashes slowly blinking.

It means that you’re uneducated, I say.
It means that you don’t know how to use words.
You should have said, rather, that you are very thirsty;
or incredibly thirsty; or remarkably thirsty;
or as thirsty as a summer’s day.

“Or as thirsty as a cat?” she asks.

Yes, or as thirsty as a cat.
But even better would be as thirsty as a fish out of water.
Or as thirsty as a piece of toast.

“Toast can’t be thirsty,” she claims.

Oh yes it can, I explain.

“How about this — as thirsty as a unicorn!”

That’s a good one, Madeleine.
How about as thirsty as a camel?

“As thirsty as a camel in the desert!”

Mom pipes in: “As thirsty as our dry creek bed.”

“I know,” says five-year old Maddie.
“As thirsty as an empty cup.”

Yes, Maddie. As thirsty as that.

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